So tired...
All the time tired. This blog post isn't about posturing or story telling or trying to hide behind pretty words.
You know how sometimes in life everything feels like a match burning out quickly? Flame heading straight for your fingers? Nothing makes sense. Waking up in the morning and getting to lunch time only to find yourself counting down the hours till you have to wake up to do the same damn thing all over again?
I'm not the type of person to ever give up or quit on things or be a loser. But sometimes, life gets the better of the better of us and you find yourself looking in the mirror asking yourself how the hell you got here. And like someone I know would say it, I don't give a good God damn how good your situation is, sooner or later you will know exactly what I mean if you don't already.
Delusional. That's what we do.
Its the climb up the smooth wall without the footholds that will toughen you up enough to take on what's at the top of that mountain. And damn it, I been climbing for a bloody long time.
Sometimes curling up in a ball and dying in your mind sounds like the solution. Just throw in the towel altogether and stop trying. And alot of the time I want to stop trying.
But if you're feeling like me, then maybe I was writing this for you.
Its a giant cliché to say the night is always darkest before dawn but you know what? It really is. The last steps up that mountain are the hardest. But its because you're almost there.
So don't quit. Your shot is just around that corner. Your breakthrough is just behind one more door, all you have to do is get there. And to that nxgga out there who is drowning under the weight of his responsibilities, obligations and his expectations of himself, you didn't come this far to fail. I tell myself that every day. And you have to believe it.
And for you little lady, there is so much more to life than just the "this" that you can see.
Keep going...
Right foot in front of the left...
M.M...