Its my birthday in exactly three days. I am excited. I am
always excited. Your birthday is the only day in the whole year in the lives of
the people that love you, that is all about YOU. So every year this time, I get up and I look at where I am and
re-evaluate. The past three years have seen me spend this time of the year in
very dark emotional places. Lonely in a room full of people. Miserable and
caught up in my baggage. Dealing.
This year is different.
This year is new.
So I'm looking around and re-evaluating. Deciding what to
keep and what to throw away. I like one thing about my life. The further I go
and the more I grow, the more things and people I don't need fall off. So I've
seen friendships that I once cherished wither and die. Right now there is a lot
of empty emotional space around me. Like
rooms in a new house and I love it! Because it means I have more room to
fill with beautiful new experiences.
Farewell to my old loves, my so-called friends, my
unnecessary acquaintances, my bad habits, my sad memories and painful
goodbyes...farewell to tears too...
Everything is brand
new...
Hello to new jobs, new songs, new feelings, new goals, new
people, places and things, and a world of amazing tomorrows...
I saw myself turn around between 24 and now...so four days
shy of 26 its been two years of shaking and breaking and bleeding and dying to
self. I love the me that I am now. This me is beautiful, funny, learning to be
confident, laughing, wearing color, NOT hiding anymore, trying new things,
challenging myself to be and to do things I haven't before...its
amazing...caterpillar to butterfly things...
I will never crawl
again...
I am grateful for my family,
they stick by me no matter what. The toughest times I had to go through were
made easier because my sisters were there to make me laugh. And that is
everything. I am grateful for my friends. My true friends. Leah, Mufa, Emelda,
Poppins, the whole lot of you and the others I haven't named. I always have
somewhere to go. Someone to talk to. Because I have all of you and that is
something I never want to lose.
Shining...new...hope...
This man. Wow...after
sooooooooooooooooooooooooo long...I met someone in this world who is actually EXACTLY what I want. Sometimes you just
know. And I know. You are my 2013 Lu. The whole year is just you. And you fit
so perfectly because you are unexpected and brilliant and amazing and
unpredictable and exciting and just what I need...all I need...to get by. I am
grateful for our journey already...as "special" as it has been. You
have taught me a lot about myself and patience and about what it means to BE love...and I love you. I am proud of
you. And no matter what I am happy to be your girl. Right now. Till whenever.
Hopefully forever. (Yes I said it. He's that great.)
Everything is brand
new...
So as I clock another one, I am full of hope and excitement
and energy and positivity. I am ready for tomorrow and the next day and I am
embracing all and anything that is MEANT
for me. I have family, friendship, love and music and Jesus is definitely
walking with me...
Emotional outpouring of feeling...it’s been a while...but its
gonna be my birthday in a minute, this month I can get away with anything...
#TitaniumSolid #Kilimanjaro
Over 'N Out...
*winks*
Miss Mahogany
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