Wednesday, 19 March 2014

Another Step In My Journey...



Welcome to Scarlet’s 20/20 Challenge. I have given myself the goal of getting to 55kgs by June 20th 2014. I started on February 20th and needed to get to a consistent pace before I went public with it. I weigh in at 68kgs right now so that means I have 13 to go. But before we go there, *cue rewinding sound effect* Let me give you some background first! :)


Ten years ago I was 17 years old and weighed about 74 kilos. Normal weight for a normal girl doing normal things. I drank very little but I loved junk food. I had struggled with my weight for most of my pre-teen years and then woke up one day sick to the point of death which led to 9 weeks later looking in the mirror and finding myself a little stick of a thing! LOVED it! Lol! Then I turned 15 and my body started playing tricks on me again.

Its been a roller coaster ride. In 2009 I was at my highest weight ever, pulling in at 89kilos and huffing and puffing like a bus whenever I had to climb stairs or God forbid, RUN! I hated myself, hated my body, my skin was out of control and my self esteem was at zero. It didn't help that the people closest to me at the time were always harping on about how big and old looking I was.

It does something to you. It changed how I looked at myself and my confidence levels. It changed how I addressed myself. I would make jokes about my flab way before anybody else could just to avoid that sinking feeling when someone commented about how I needed to work on my tummy.

And the years kept going...

So I get to 24 and I weigh 80 kilos. I'm in school and its rough and I don't eat except at night when there's no class. I still hate my body and can't wear what I want but I can't be bothered to do anything about it.

And the years keep going...

That was 2011. I knew then that I wanted to be smaller. But my musical moment came and I didn't have the time to focus on anything except work and promotion and getting out of school. So I did nothing. But there comes a time when you get fed up or have an "aha" moment and you just have to DO something!

That moment came last year.

So I wake up one day and find I have a thing for this guy who is a fitness freak. He's tall and strong, filled out real nice, just the right kinda thickness and all in proportion and he's HEALTHY! He doesn't drink fizzy drinks unless he has to, hardly ever has sweets or pastry, runs and plays soccer and all this stuff and I'm like O_o !!! How the hell am I gonna keep up with that? I'm all over that cranberry and lemonade, strawberry cheesecake, Lindt chocolate life! And weighing 78 kilos no less! I can't even feel sexy! When we hug, I can FEEL my love handles!

 So initially it was because of a guy. Not to keep up or compete but just because one day he said to me, "I don't really care either way, but if you don't like something about your body, you should change it. Fair and fine that sounds easier than it actually is, but if you're disciplined and you really want it, you can fix what you don't like." And I thought, "Why the hell not? What do I really have to lose?"

That was the beginning of the journey to this point. But I didn't commit right there and then. Lots of things and events and epic food came along to distract me. But this year I said I was really going to do it. I was really going to work on ME for me!

I started out at about 76kg last August and got on a 9 day cleanse using aloe vera products and fat blocking pills. It cost me a bit but I felt the difference in my clothes. Then I went through a long fasting period that really only ended this past January.

When I was done with that, I decided to be healthy about it and that's what this is all about.

So basically, I will be off starch for the next two months and then go to minimal starch for the last month. I have cut out all sugar and dairy products except for my new vice, natural yoghurt. No red meat either. My sister has joined me on it and we are living on vegetables, fruit, yoghurt, water, juice, chicken and fish. Additionally, I will be creating a work out schedule and committing to that for the duration of the challenge and beyond.



For the next three months this will be my diary. Weekly posts on Fridays documenting my progress and my failures, pictures of before and after and regular weigh ins as well as recipes and food sources and the occasional video or two of me huffing and puffing while doing body work. I've been on it a month now in my closet, but now I welcome all of you who feel like me to join in and create a goal and work with me towards it.

Let's see just how well this will work! Looking forward to climbing with you! 



#TitaniumSolid #Kilimanjaro

M.M

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