So yesterday I was advised to engage more on my blog...I don't quite know how to do that. It makes me wonder what it means to be visible. But in the event that I needed to post something here, I would want it to be unforgettable....pun intended....
I just put an album out...it has so many different themes, different subjects, especially love...we must never forget or neglect love....it feeds human nature....
I observe a lot....and in my observations I am struck by different things. I forgot to write my annual Facebook note thanking everybody one by one for the invaluable input they had in my life throughout last year...and then I realized its okay because I am one of those people that always says thank you or finds some way to show my gratitude. As a conglomerate we lost a lot last year....the moments of silence for friends and family lost and the tears shed for heartbreak and disappointment were too many to want to even remember...but we emerged stronger and even more focused than before...with new ideas, new sacrifices to be made, and hope....for that flame should never be put out....
I am grateful to Em....she taught me a great deal last year....above all things she taught me to do me. And I am...so deliciously...enjoying the person I have become, the butterfly emerging from the constricting cocoon that is my past. The present is so full of opportunities and new things and people and places to go. I have conquered most of my fears and the ones that I haven't are on my to do list. I was inspired to work on creating a bucket-list and what fun it is proving to be. I have gotten over my hang ups with the past...all the things I said I would never do again. I am totally going to the marina....forget whatever ghosts haunt my memories of the place, because I have found a partner to go with, someone who makes very single day feel like an adventure....someone who is in every scene of every love story I ever dreamed or imagined and has been from our first laughter-filled lunch in a garden...
My mother is such a paragon of virtue and beauty and grace...she is the most beautiful person I have ever known even with all her "wahala"...I love her to pieces and I am so excited about everything we are about to do....nothing she touches turns to dust....and I always forget to say thank you to her...for just giving birth to me you know....
Fashion....I have no idea what that is....but thank God for harem pants, they make me bootylicious, they are officially my new vice....and also for heels....I am only wearing them now because I didn't realize how much they mattered when you have to walk next to somebody tall...and God forbid he should ever forget the feet they house.... *sticks tongue out*....I am getting over jeans, they make me uncomfortable....*gasp*...soooooo uncomfortable...its not even funny. I want to spend forever in a sweatsuit......baking cookies and banana loaf and writing music, hair in a pony tail, drinking lemonade on the patio waiting for him to come home....I am not afraid to day dream.....
I am beautifully human and that is the greatest blessing of them all...because in all my musings I realized that it matters not what others think of me, it matters only what I think and believe of myself...and that in itself is priceless....I face the mirror everyday, proud of me and more and more in love with my humanity every day....I will continue to do so...and I will continue to blog....
Unforgettably Yours,
Miss Mahogany.....
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